It was friday afternoon, 31 August 2012, while we are getting ready to go home to Sto, Cristo, when Benedict made his first few steps. Three (3) little steps filled with determination to reach the yellow monoblock chair without any support from me, who at that time was hoping and praying that he would successfully reach the chair and not stumble and fall on the floor. And he made it! I was so happy to be able to see him walk on his own. It was followed by a few steps that Daddy witnessed the next monday evening, 3 September, while he was playing with Benedict. Our son take a few steps from the side table he was holding on to the side of our bed. I could still remember how surprised and glad daddy was. I could sense on his voice that he really was so surprised and happy.
But that excitement vanished for a while when the idea of walking on his own, unsupported would mean that he would be needing us less. Parang kinurot ang puso ko nang maisip ko na as the days past by, as he grow older, he would be needing us lesser and lesser and someday he will say “Daddy, Mommy, malaki na ako, kaya ko na po gawin ito na mag-isa. I can decide for my self already.”
I think, if not all, most of us told it to our parents and guardians to ask for our freedom.
Hindi nakakainip magpalaki ng anak, ang totoo, nabibilisan ako sa paglaki ni Benedict. A part of me is saying na sana mabilis siyang lumaki. But the biggest part of me and my heart is hoping that he will be as innocent as he is now. Carefree, problem-free.